"It gives you freedom, if you don't become a kind of robot. To be honest, at first I had no intention of returning to Holland, but suddenly I had a very good feeling. I needed the warmth that the people at PSV gave me at this moment in my career. I had to feel again well and really feeling at home," he said. "So from there I was able to show myself again. Why didn't I go back to Ajax? I don't really have an opinion on that. There was a new board and they decide. I like to hear that many people think that Ajax should have brought me back."