Barcelona defender Eric Abidal says he "never thought of dying" during his long struggle with cancer.
The Frenchman was first diagnosed with the disease back in 2011 and missed a year of football after undergoing a liver transplant in April 2012.
"I never thought of death because I know that it is God who decides," the 33-year-old told TF1.
"I have suffered. I remember one Sunday when I could not bear the pain. I asked the doctors if they could put me into coma.
"We talked about a transplant, but in fact, I had four or five operations in a very short time. I've lost 19 kilograms.
"After the fourth operation, the doctors told me I had a lot of fluid in my stomach and wondered how I could stand the pain."