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The Cardiff City striker has reveals that the sudden death of the former Wales boss has taken its toll on his marriage as he tries to come to terms with the loss of his "best mate"

Cardiff City striker Craig Bellamy has revealed that he is struggling to come to terms with the death of his former team-mate and close friend, Gary Speed.

The then-Wales manager was found hanged at his Cheshire home in November 2011, with coroners unable to determine whether he had deliberately committed suicide.

And Bellamy, who played with Speed at Newcastle United and for the national team, admits that he is still coming to terms with his loss.

"Losing my best mate has affected everything," Bellamy told the Sunday Mirror. "I can't believe how hard it is. It has had an effect on everything.

"He was the best mate I've ever had. All I know is that my best mate has gone. I'm struggling. I can’t lie."

The 33-year-old, who left Liverpool to join his hometown club this summer for family reasons, also revealed that his marriage has broken down over the incident.

"It's sad but unfortunately it got to my marriage. I'm here and she's there," he added. "I don’t know if that's it for us. I've been living on my own for eight weeks now.

"There's no one else involved. I wish there was. I wish I had someone and I wish she [Claire] had someone. That would make it easier.

"It's hit me hard. It's nothing to do with football and it's nothing to do with me as a footballer. I couldn't give a s*** about football.

"It's about real people, human beings, kids and families. I can't tell you how hard it is. It's the worst time in my life ever."

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