The French attacking midfielder says that he is "sad and frustrated" by Alan Pardew's reluctance to play him in 2014 but wants to reach the top four or win a trophy at the club
The Frenchman has been training with the Magpies' reserves after falling out of favour with under-fire manager Alan Pardew.
Newcastle sit ninth in the Premier League table despite six straight losses, with Ben Arfa having struggled for game time in the New Year.
"Of course it hurts me because I'm competitive," he told reporters, having requested to speak to the press.
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"I feel sad and frustrated but not angry. I want to help my team and I can't. It hurts a lot. I want to take the ball and give the maximum for the team. When I see we are losing games 3-0, 4-0, it is very hard for me. If I am involved on Saturday, I could make a difference. I would like to try."
Ben Arfa has been linked with a move away from Newcastle and says that it would be out of his control if the club want to sell him but believes that his team are capable of challenging for European qualification or a trophy.
"I think Pardew believes in me but he doesn't show it. I don't know why," the former Marseille man opined. "He needs to give me more confidence because I think he believes in me.
"If the manager doesn't play me, I respect that but every player needs confidence. It hurts. My dream is to be in the top four next season with Newcastle, to get into the Champions League or to win a cup.
"Everyone is going to say Newcastle are not a big team, they're a small team, but it's not true."